Our Journey

 A lot has happened since I lost wrote a blog. In Nov of 2020 we went to West Palm beach Florida for a consult with Dr. Dobbs. He wasn't happy with the treatment I was getting. We went back home to Fort Smith Arkansas and I searched for health insurance for her because sadly Medicaid wont cover Dr. Dobbs and we couldn't afford the out of pocket cost. So Hubby got her on his health insurance with his job. My hubby Nate decided to get out of the Army after 8 years he didnt like being apart from us and missing out on our children's life anymore. Plus he wanted to be around for doctor's appointments and therapies. MatthewPatrick is doing good still in speech, occupational, and physical therapy. He's doing good in school, gets out of school May 28,2021. Anastasia is doing good, in preschool. Right now we are in Florida while she gets her treatment from Dr. Dobbs. I can't believe it took five doctors to get us to where we are now. And now she is seeing the number one ...

As you read my past blogs you should know by now that my daughter was born with bilateral clubfoot and that was the whole reason I started this blog. And man it's been a very stressful hard journey. If I knew half of the stuff that I know now back when I first started her treatment I would have found a doctor way better treat her feet then now. With this virus that's going around she has to stop physical therapy because her facility is closed so I've been doing what I can at home and it is very hard because all I am doing is stretches. She started to start falling again in tripping because her poor feet are not staying straight but her heal is staying down she started to walk on her heel on one foot I'm just ready for a doctor to fix for her feet the right way instead of giving me the go around.  I'm ready for her physical therapist facility to be back open I'm ready for her feet to be fully corrected I'm ready for the falling to stop, the knock kneed., alon...

So I know I haven't posted a Blog in awhile sorry about that things have just been crazy and I just don't know what to post about right now. So I'm just going to sit and talk about random stuff and title it random LOL. First thing when talking about is never ever ever take your card to Walmart to get an oil change I am like so frustrated right now because I took my van and November to get an oil change and will they touches my radiator cap which I did not know about and I drove my vehicle for a few days with it just placed on there instead of screwed down and I came home one day after taking my son to his therapy and my car steamed up real bad under find out my radiator is cracked and that's going to cost me $353 to get it fixed it keep in mind I don't have. I'm ready for things to be back to normal due to the covid-19 virus but I am worried about about an outbreak just like what happened in China and they're predicting in the fall that it could be ten times...

So its the start of allergies and boy are they messing up with my son and I. For a while we have been dealing with bloody noses from my son and it is starting to frustrate me. I don't know why my son keeps on getting nose bleeds everyday. I know he is tired of it and I am also. I've talked to his PCP about it and they are waiting to wait for his ENT records to try to do something different. He has had I believe 4 nose surgeries in four and a half years and I really don't want to have him do another one. I know if its good to do then I will but I was hoping he would out grow it. But i don't think he is out growing the nose bleeds. It's the 11th of April and he has had nine days worth of bloody noses. As a mom you wish you had all of the answers and a solution to stop them. I wish the doctors could figure out what is causing the nose bleeds because well I'm tired of always being frustrated. I guess from here I'm going to take it day by day and try to not worry...

So I read a Blog well that's what I'm calling it. I am sure I'm not the only one that heard of love what matters. If you haven't well Facebook page. Anyways there was a post from a fellow military wife and it hit two home. It made me cry and to realize hey I am not alone and all the stresses that I'm facing it's okay to cry. I always try to be strong for my children and myself and my hubby but let's face it right now things are hard. I have so many worries and not many family around to talk and cry with. Heck I don't even really have friends around me. And with this stay home because of the covid19 like it matters anyways. But when you are trying to juggle being a mom wife and now + teacher it's kind of hard. And when you add the school work let's just say my son is getting frustrated a lot. The point of this blog today is to tell you it's okay to cry, get mad and be worried. But remember that in the end all of us will end up stronger and fin...

Wow I haven't posted anything for twenty-three days sorry y'all. So I figured I would update on everything that's going on with us. First it will be my children updates. My daughter is doing good its been a journey on making sure I try to do the right things. We went to a new orthro doc and well lets just say I didn't like what he had to say. He told me to stop doing the afos and let her just walk in shoes or without shoes and just do her bnb at night. Well I did that for ONE day and she fall so many times her poor knees were cut up and kept on asking to put her afos on so I let her. He didn't want to do any other brace besides the bnb so I'm mad there because he's not the one here dealing with her not sleeping. She had to stop physical therapy for a while due to Coronavirus shutting down offices. I also think she has my allergies shes so far had three bloody noses. I do stretching at home on her feet and I hope I can find a better doc for her. My son is out...

Let's talk jobs here for a second. So I've been a stay at home mom since I had my daughter in February 2017. And I was on maternity leave so I truly stopped working in March 2017. Lets just say that finding a job now is HARD. I don't have a lot of flexibility and with us only having one vehicle. Things are hard right now. If I knew that job hunting would be hard once I think I can go back to work I would never of quiet. But lets face it, my life is not easy. Why? Because of the constantly traveling to doctor appointments and therapies. I just wish that my graphic design business and photography was making more $ then what it was so That I wouldn't always be worried about bills and rent. I'm praying things will get better for my family but I can never get ahead. I'm emotionally worn out and stressed. I feel like I'm always doing a bad job of being a mother to my children. Here is to praying things will get better. This is my little rant today. I will have som...

So I've been graphic designing since I was 16 years old. And I LOVE IT is a understatement. I've come a long way since I first started at being a teen. I opened my own business called Loving My Heroes Designs and its been a bumpy road only because sells are down but it will get better. I just had a client ask me to do a mermaid themed design and I'm loving all of the items that I have made. I know a lot of people now also do graphic design but this is my year and I have faith I will get a lot of sales. I recently started to do watermarks, logos, and cover photos for photographers and I hope I become a big hit with that. For now I'll just leave all of my links in this blog for people to buy clothing from me. And if you want something custom made feel free to comment on this blog or find my fb group Loving My Heroes Designs. I just don't make clothing now I also do jewelry items. Item number 4 is the one I update the most but all of the others have items on it too m...